
i've been hearing & reading & thinking so much
lately about just being yourself
&
breaking down the little walls
that we so easily build up
hiding who we really are behind smiles
& pearl necklaces
so that we can look like we've got it all together
& love to wear our pearl necklaces
& then we look at each other
& think that everyone else has it all together
& loves their pearl necklaces
so we just keep pretending to have it all together
while we choke on our pearl necklaces...
well, guess what?
i don't have it all together
& while a pearl necklace would be just fine
some days i want to wear one with daisies on it
& some days i don't want to wear one at all...
& that is really just fine...
it's hard to pretend like you have it all together
very tiring
& i wish it was easier to be honest about how
we are really feeling...
the balance is so hard
because i don't want to always paint on a smile
but i also don't want to be that person that
people are like
'uh oh
look out for her
she tells you how she REALLY FEELS'
or maybe i do...
anyway...
i read from
this great bookby brennan manning each morning
& last week the page was about no more games
& just being open to being honest
& of course i had to make a 'no more games' game board...
so grab your friends
grab some snacks
grab the dice
& roll it...
you never know
those pearl necklaces might just fall right off...
:)